Writing 101: Day 4 – A God shaped hole in the Universe

Today’s Prompt: Write about a loss: something (or someone) that was part of your life, and isn’t any more.

Would I see a Thestral? Not really.

I thought hard about this. Loss. What have I really lost in my life? Apart from losing materialistic things that do not matter anyway- life, I guess, hasn’t been that hard on me. Touch wood. All the people who mean something to me, I still have them in my life. I might have grown apart with some momentarily, but we always found a way of getting back again.

And you ask me to write about loss. But I don’t want to delve into the what-could-have-been.

Then I think of things. And then something really strikes me hard. I did lose something.

Something I had plenty till my adolescence, but something that almost magically vanished from my life later on – faithIt’s not something I planned to do. It just sorta happened. Is there a switch that turns on and off in your brain to decide these things? I dunno. But faith, blind faith to be exact, is something I had a problem with ever since my childhood. I was always the skeptical one. The one who asked questions no body had perfect answers to. I think it’s called scientific temper, that’s what I had. So yes, this is not exactly a loss. But someone I willfully chose to let go. I let go of God.

I’m not gonna justify my position or my belief system here, you’re much better off without it. And I’m not anti-religious in any way, either. I have a lot of respect for people who believe in the divine. Religion teaches a lot of things and I’m no one to deny that. But again, I do believe that it is really possible to live without having to answer to a power.

I’ll only say the next few lines –

I live my life with the confidence and understanding that it is I who is at the steering wheel. That whatever happens or needs to happen to me rests purely on me. 

I live my life with the realization that I might not have been sent here with a purpose. That I can choose my purpose at will. That I’m nothing but a speck in this vast magnanimous universe.

I live my life with the fear that life here on Earth is all I’ve got. That I did not exist before. That I will not exist after I die. It makes me appreciate how crucial life here is. That I need to try harder to make the best use of it. I really feel for people who worry too much about what would happen after they die.

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17 thoughts on “Writing 101: Day 4 – A God shaped hole in the Universe

  1. Loved this. Don’t apologize for your opinion. Ever! 😉 It’s a part of a free and open society that you’re free to express your opinions. So long as you’re not being overtly an ass or infringing on other peoples rights, I’d say you’re in the clear.
    I was raised by an atheist family, so I never really had the faith. I know that the church cultivates a sense of community and something larger than yourself, but I’m with you. I could never get behind it.
    Mark Manson did a review of 7 books that would change your life. He reviewed Nietzsche’s book “On the Genealogy of Morals”.
    It is a bit harsh, but he wrote: “Bonus Points For: Claiming that the weak people had to invent God so that they could believe their suffering actually meant something. Nietzsche was a pretty hardcore dude.”
    Kind of harsh, but I like it. 🙂 Good piece!

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    • Thanks! I’m usually not worried about my opinions but I do realize this is a sensitive topic so just had to put it there.

      Never heard of Mark Manson but that does look like something I would enjoy! Sometimes you have to be harsh to get the point across!

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  2. This post wasn’t hurtful at all Uday. 🙂 So don’t apologize buddy! I can totally understand and respect your point of view even though I’m a highly religious person. What matters the most is that you live your life as fully as possible and make this world a better place for the people around you. ^_^

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  3. Well written – your style is smooth and easy to read. The topic – I concur. I am but a me and that is all. I am responsible for my actions. I am responsible for my choices. Sometimes I wish I could blindly relinquish all my guilt, grief and confusion to another to deal with but that is not I.

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    • Feels good to hear that! It’s my endeavor to be as non judgmental as possible and I’m glad it came through in my writing. Thanks a lot, your comment means a lot to me 🙂

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